Sarah Herron opens up about the terrifying postpartum reality after losing her newborn son.
Late last week, The Bachelor alum uploaded a photo of herself on Instagram wearing an adult diaper … a week after the death of her son Oliver Brown, who died shortly after she gave birth at 24 weeks pregnant.
“TW – Postpartum after pregnancy loss is still postpartum. I haven’t got a chapter on perinatal care or lactation support. I jumped from second trimester to fourth trimester overnight,” Herron revealed on Friday.
The former reality star continues to reveal many unknown things yet necessary, while also revealing that they don’t expect breast milk to come in, which means they need to learn how to pump.
Despite not having a baby to feed. Just spoil it.
“Suddenly the days spent sampling belly oil and rubbing my bump were spent taking a crash course in postpartum relief through crying,” she continued.
“I don’t want relief, I want my son.”
Herron appeared on Sean Lowe’s season of The Bachelor in 2013, has been engaged to Dylan Brown since 2021 and announced her pregnancy last September.
“Since coming home without Oliver, everything has been a reminder of what I had to do, and what I have to do now without him here,” Herron wrote in her latest post.
“There is no way to prepare yourself for the discomfort of pregnancy that can suddenly, without warning, disappear.”
Harroe notes how sad it is to look in the mirror and remind her that there are no more bumps.
Herron said that “the things I wanted to eat during pregnancy” like a turkey sandwich and a glass of wine “felt like my baby was leaving me…
“And the things I love about pregnancy; like berries (lots of berries!) taste like cheating.”
He continued as follows:
“I was never prepared for this, and no mother should be. I understand why no doctor or book tells you about the possibility of this torture [and] I have no positive way to wrap up this post.
“It’s probably the second saddest thing I’ve ever done.”
Herron is tired, but not alone.
In a separate post, he wrote about his dog, Rio:
“He didn’t leave my side for a week. He was so sad, it broke my heart.
“Why are dogs so magical? I can’t stop wondering how he knew when we were in Bend, [Oregon] that Oliver is not OK.
“We don’t know, but he knows. I hate it. I’m sorry he’s scared.”
Sharing a selfie on her Instagram story Friday, Herron explained the snapshot from last week, writing along with:
“It’s been a week. This was the last morning we all sat together. It was the last morning I had to soak in big somersaults and hiccups. I want to go back.
“I’d give anything to go back to last Friday morning.”
“We miss and love you, boy.”